Why it is good to for go...

The recent days have been busy and full of struggle, part of this is because for some reason, perhaps because I have had less junk filling my mind, I've been able to actually hear my own thoughts. At first, this was scary because I realized I'm sort of not that interesting and also super super apart from God most of the time. I was reading a book about confession in which a monk proposed that he didn't love God because he couldn't spend even an hour with Him every day, and any time spent with God was laborious. This sort of got me thinking about my own heart and if, in fact, I loved God more than the monk...after some thought I decided the monk probably loved God more. So, in my lack of love I've been wondering why it is good to for go entertainment. We said our purpose was to pray for MW, and that it is. But, selfish person that I am, that reason alone didn't suffice. In coming to these conclusions about the reality of my own depravity the muddy waters of my mind started to clear and realize that God is super good at mutli-tasking. Not only would he honor our collective desire for vision and the furthering of his Kingdom through Mending Wings, but He is also refining, correcting, loving, admonisthing, teaching, loving, loving and loving us. So if your insides start to feel like ash, like the dust that we are, or if you can't stand anyone including yourself, perhaps this is an encouragement that it means you are engaging with the Spirit and Word of God more than normal. So, it is good to for go entertainment because it brings us closer to our Heavenly Father. And actually right now that sounds like a really good reason, I guess I might love God some after all.